The end

Time is flying, sometimes I wonder where it all goes. I took my last final of my undergrad this week. Now I just have to finish up my internship hours and I will be an official graduate. Its nice but feels weird at the same time. I am already wondering what to do with myself at night. No homework to do or books to read for class. Crazy! But I am glad to be done.
We have about a month till the wedding and I CAN NOT WAIT!!! I just want it to be now. I am sick of not being able to see my man everyday. It is hard, but I know that in the end it will be worth it.
I cant believe that Christmas is this week, its weird, it does not feel that I have really celebrated this year, I am kind of sad. Maybe its because last year me and my roommates were closer and put up a tree and decked out our place. Not this year, I dont even talk to any of them. It makes me sad, but they all seem to busy with their own lives, which is good, but still.......
So lately I have been super emotional and I am not going to lie, I HATE IT! I cry and anything! It is getting old and fast. I feel like I cant turn on the TV or listen to a love song without getting all teary eyed and what not. I guess its good that my hormones are in order and my tear ducts are functioning but at the same time.... Oh well.
Work is going ok, I am transfering to another office come the beginning of the year and I am looking forward to the change. I have gotten really sick of alot of people that I work with. Some of them are on their last string as far as my patience goes with them. Dont worry, I am trying my hardest to get along with them, but sometimes people are just plan stupid and annoying. I am not sure if they really have any friends. But that is not my place to judge..... moving on..
I hope you all have a great holiday and stay safe. IF you want a wedding announcement let me know ASAP. We are hoping to have them out in the next two weeks.

* A cute pic from goggle to put us all in the holiday spirit!

Gratutude

In church today the topic was gratitude, no surprise as it is Thanksgiving week. It got me thinking about what I am thankful for. There are so many things, the typical answers, family, friends, food, money etc etc. Well this weekend I became greatful for a surprising thing. I am grateful for stress. Yes thats right, STRESS! It is a big thing that has been in my life lately. We all go through it. Some more than others and we all handle it differently. I have been stressed because of school, trying to get everything done to be able to graduate next month, lots of tests, papers, and deadlines that need to be met. But I set goals and make sure that I stay on task so I can get them all done on time.
I stress about the wedding, about the many details that come with it. There is still alot of planning to do and tons of things to get done. It is a constant thing on my mind, but I take it one day at a time. I also stress about money and being able to make it through. I stress about not being able to sell my contract so that I can move when i get married. All of these and more cause me stress and grief, sometimes to the point where I break down and cry. But then I get up and move on.
This weekend I was able to have a me weekend. I didnt worry about school, or work, or planning a wedding. I had fun. I was able to spend it with my fiance, doing things together and just having fun. It felt so nice to not have a care in the world, to be able to be silly and have fun. I loved it. I cant wait until I can have more of those days. I think one of the reasons that I loved it so much was because I dont have them very often. My life is stressful and I don't have time to think about me. But because I stressed all week to get everything done, I had time to play. That is why I may be a bit crazy in saying that I am thankful for stress. What are you thankful for?

My wish list....

Mama’s Holiday Wish List Meme
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are giving away a sleighful of gifts this holiday season and to enter I’m sharing this meme with you.

1. What 5 items are on your holiday wish list this year?
A new laptop
Mtn bike so I can start getting back into shape
A new kitchen filled with stuff to make yummy foods
A new couch and love sac
My wedding to be paid in full

2. What is your favorite handmade gift you have received?
A sweet letter and pics from my cute little sister

3. What handmade gift have you always wanted to tackle?
A cute apron!

4. What was the best Christmas gift you received as a child?
A big doll house
5. What items are on your kid’s wish list this year?
Dont have any kids yet....
6. What is your favorite holiday food?
Lots of sweets and ham!

7. What will you be hand-crafting for the holidays?
Possbily some picture frames and lots of food to eat

8. What is your favorite holiday movie?
Christmas vacation
9. Favorite holiday song?
The whole Noel CD by Josh Grobin
10. Favorite holiday pastime?
Being with my family and listening to music and just enojoying myself!

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Blah

Friday's are supposed to be good happy days. Smiles are all around and people cant wait for the weekend. Sadly I am not one of those. I am sad, I am tired, and I dont want the weekend too come, it is full of homework and no fun. I am ready to be done. Will life just end all ready? No more busy work!

Worthless

There are some days when I wonder if it is all worth it. I work hard to the point of killing myself to get it all done and turned in to please other people and no one seems to care. Why is that? I get so incredibly frustrated that I could scream. I have seriously contemplating changing my ways. Doing the minimal work and not worrying about the rest. Since no one notices there is no point in running myself into the ground right? Especially if it worth mere pennies on a paycheck. But that is a whole other story. Venting done, time to get back to homework.
P.S. Does anyone actually read my blog? If you do help a girl boost her self esteem and comment once in a while. Thanks!

Engagments

So we got our engagments taken about 3 weeks ago and got them back last night. I am not going to lie, most of the time I dont really like what I look like in pics. There are so many things that I would change about myself. One day maybe that will happen. But for now, I will deal with what I got. The pics look pretty good, it helps that the guy in them looks great! Once I find the ones I like I will post them. Here is one that I like.

Cinnamon Roll Cake

I know, two posts in one day! Crazy! But I had to post this. I am an avid food blog junkie, I cant get enough of them. I am always reading and getting new ideas, maybe one day I will have one of my own, but I need to find time to cook first. But for now I read and dream of things to make when I find the time. I found this recipe on a blog called Abby Sweets. My heaven, tons of sugar and good things! This is my first recipe that I have tried of her's and I will be going back for more soon! I made this cake last weekend for me and my man and he LOVED it! So I made it again for a party we went to on Halloween and they all LOVED it! I made it again last night for my family, and.... they LOVED it! So I thought I would share it. Maybe some of you will LOVE it too!! It is super simple to make and from start to finish takes less than an hour. Enjoy!

Cinnamon Roll Cake

Yellow Cake Mix
4 eggs
¾ cup oil
1 cup sour cream

Mix by hand and pour in 13 x 9 greased baking pan.

1 cup brown sugar
1 tbsp cinnamon
Mix and pour over cake batter. Swirl into batter with knife.

Bake @ 325 for 40 minutes. Let cake cool 10 – 15 minutes before icing.

Icing:
2 cups powdered sugar
4 tbsp milk

Pour over warm cake

On the 2nd and 3rd cake I didnt have sour cream and really didnt want to go to the store so I put in uped the oil, putting in 1 cup and then sprinkled chocolate chips on top. Divine! With sour cream it is a moist cake, with no sour cream and a bit more oil, a denser brownie like heaven. Either way they are to die for! Let me know what you think!